Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Perfect moments
There have been many times where I have felt very strong feelings, those feelings have ranged from anger to sadness, from sadness to joy and anything in-between. I think my most memorable overwhelming emotion was love, with a whole lot of joy mixed in. I had this feeling when I held my son for the first time. I cannot even begin to describe the wonderful feeling of holding the life that you created in your arms for the very first time. The feeling of holding their tiny hands and counting their little toes. Of seeing their eyes open and focus on you and of knowing that no matter what that little person is yours and you will do anything for it. Don’t get me wrong there were countless (well 10 exactly) months of cravings and morning sickness, well all day sickness in my case, and crazy hormones and a ridiculous amount of ups and downs and a whole lot of pain. When it came down to that moment though, it was like the entire world stood still and He and I were the only people in the world and from that moment on he was the only person that meant anything to me, the only person and I would do anything and everything for. I do not really know too much about animals and how they are with their young so I cannot really say that it was an equivalent feeling to any one specifically, but I think that the feeling of protectiveness would be the same as any lions or maybe tigers. I know that they are very territorial animals and that when anyone or anything gets close to their young they become very defensive. That is the way that I feel about my son constantly and in order to feel so protect over something or someone you have to have a special kind of love for them and let me just tell you, if my heart could have exploded the first time I held my son I think it would have. Like I said before there are really no feelings and no words that I could use to describe how literally awestruck I was in that moment. I don’t know if everyone who has kids feels that way the first time that they hold them but oh man, nothing can compare to it. All I could think was how I made this perfect little person and I know everyone thinks that their kids are special but in the first moment they really are perfect. There is nothing that can take that joy away and nothing that can tarnish the memory. Babies are perfect, the innocence and the, I don’t have any other word except perfectness, are so overwhelming. I think that if there was any way to feel so happy and so amazing all the time that I would do it no matter what, not meaning to say that I am just going to keep having babies, lol, one is more than enough for now.
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I enjoyed reading your blog and I can agree with you there is nothing like holding your baby for the first time. To think that for the whole ten months you feel like it’s a little alien or let’s say ball of energy moving around inside of you and draining your energy at the same time, at times you feel like the pregnancy will never be over than all of sudden you are in labor. Whew, I don’t miss that part I am not sure how old your baby is now but it’s times when they get especially into their terrible two’s, three’s four’s that’s when you want to remember that one special moment in time when you first held him and everything in the world was on pause because that’s going to be what saves him from getting into a lot of trouble with you. I would say a mother’s love is somewhat like a momma bear, I don’t know if you have seen the video with the cub reuniting with his mother but they showed so much affection when they reunited animal behaviorist and the media went crazy over it. That just goes to show how much love a momma bear has for her cubs, imagine how she felt when she thought she lost her cub, I just think it was a beautiful reunion and you comparing your love to a bear I think is about as close as you can get.
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